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Guys. GUYS!

You know how people always say trust the universe, ask and it will provide. What they often forget is that the universe needs you to do the legwork.

Up to this afternoon, I was close to a melt down. Stressed beyond healthy.

I have so much to get set and planned.

Student visa, but for a student visa I need to be a student so I need tuition money. My school will be closed over March and April for major holidays - I won't be getting paid, so I need to cover rent and food as well.
I needed extra work and I needed it urgently.

I placed a few ads and today things came together. My one tutor student wants 6 hours a week - Tuition covered!
I have my regular Sunday School session - food covered
I have 2 new potential students - rent covered - possibly with savings.

So, in exchange for having a somewhat stable income stream, I will have no free time. Its a small price to pay until my new contract.

Oh and I'm looking for a new condo closer to town. Going to view them tomorrow and Sunday. Can't wait!

Now I just need to get laid. or have an awesome massage. Either one will do.


Dec. 31st, 2014 09:54 pm
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As I type this, I realise that is truly the first time I have ever spent a NYE alone.

Not that I didn't have options for social frivolity, but I chose this solo en devour. And I'm in two minds now that I made my choice.
I would have loved to have been surrounded by people, having a good time, celebrating a new year and all that. But two reasons sent me to the alone part.

1) My salary was dismal
2) I would have spent the evening with thousands of other people - none of whom I really like.

My chances of a NYE kiss are the same whether I'm home or out, and home has cheaper booze and a toilet that I trust.

This whole year has been mental. I started it out with ideas and plans and dreams and by June, everything had changed.

I love change.

And yet now- I don't want as much change as I did.

I have only two resolutions for this year.
1) Be a brilliant teacher
2) Learn to play my uke.

The rest - the personal growth, the dreams, the ambitions - I have them, but I've learnt that putting a time line on these things will just cause undue stress and possibly the world ending.

And I am truly scared. I have no idea what comes next. Usually its liberating, but at the moment, it's scary as hell. I really have no idea what to do.

This is based on my revelation that I had - I'm all for feminism and such but the past week made me realise that I don't actually want a job.
I want a family. I want a veggie garden. I want a big kitchen. I want laughter and hugs and crayons on the walls. I want PTA meetings and school plays and holidays with stupid traditions. I want everything I shouldn't dream of asking for.

I always wanted it. I just never thought it was appropriate under my circumstances.

Happy New Year people.

Let's make 2015 our bitch.
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taken from [livejournal.com profile] bunney to do whilst I listen to the Good Omens radio play and put off doing lesson plans.

What is your salad dressing of choice? Balsamic
What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? My old local pub - The Keg
What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of? Grilled Cheese
What are your pizza toppings of choice? Chicken, shrooms and extra cheese
What do you like to put on your toast? Butter and marmite

How many television sets are in your house? 1
What color cell phone do you have? Blue Samsung Galaxy S3

Are you right-handed or left-handed? Right-handed
Have you ever had anything removed from your body? tonsils, wisdom teeth
What is the last heavy item you lifted? my laptop
Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Nope. I have a thick skull.

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? Yes.
If you could change your name, what would you change it to? My name is unique, so i'm gonna keep it.
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? Nope.

How many pairs of flip flops do you own? one
Last time you had a run-in with the cops? ummmm...uhhh...
Last person you talked to? my sister
Last person you hugged? i was hugged by my class of 6 year olds...

Season? Summer
Holiday? Xmas
Day of the week? Saturday
Month? September

Missing someone? no.
Mood? okay
What are you listening to? Good Omens radio play
Watching? my spelling
Worrying about? making 50 baht stretch to pay day. saving enough cash for uni and student visa.

First place you went to this morning? the bathroom
What's the last movie you saw? The Thin Man (1934)
Do you smile often? Not anymore


1) Do you always answer your phone? Nope.
2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? spam from network
3) If you could change your eye color what would it be? brighter green
4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? Not sure what Sonic is.
5) Do you own a digital camera? nope
6) Have you ever had a pet fish? nope
7) Favorite Christmas song? Santa Baby
8) What's on your wish list for your birthday? Boobjob
9) Can you do push ups? yes. just not many.
10) Can you do a chin up? i haven't tried.
11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Nervous - I have no idea what's coming.
12) Do you have any saved texts? no.
13) Ever been in a car wreck? nope.
14) Do you have an accent? yeah - british with a few south africanisms thrown in.
15) What is the last song to make you cry? can't recall
16) Plans tonight? pretty much the same as what i'm doing now.
17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? A few times
18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week: coffee, drinking water, cigs.
19) Have you ever been given roses? yes.
20) Current worry? money and lack thereof.
21) Current hate right now? Bangkok. and being broke.
22) Met someone who changed your life? Yes and then he died.
23) How did you bring in the New Year? 2014 - wine and family. 2015 - wine and strangers.
24) What song represents you? All by myself by Celine Dion (at least for now)
25) Name three people who might complete this? No one reads my journal anymore
26) What were you doing 12 AM last night? attempting to sleep.
27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? waking up alone again.
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So, Bangkok has been keeping me busy. Mostly with work.

My kids are equal parts amazing and assholes. I will be spending my xmas break doing lesson plans for the second half of the semester - fun.
I'm also doing TESOL tutoring online, so goodbye free time.

Thailand, being mostly Buddist, doesn't celebrate xmas except on a purely commercial level. All the malls are done up and to be honest, it looks amazing.

I have been reading a lot, mostly about the dark ages - I've rekindled my love for history.
I have read - An Utterly Impartial History of Britian
Keith Ramsbottom
and - 1000 years of Annoying the French

All three are hilarious historical insights.

I also joined an expat wine club, so, I'm peopling once a week. Which is good.

I had to pop over to Cambodia yesterday for a visa renewal. It's green. That's about it.

I plan to do more touristy things next year, when I have cash. Which is still pretty tight.

Merry xmas you lot. Hope its a good one.


Dec. 21st, 2014 09:27 am
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Borrowed from [livejournal.com profile] mizzy2k

Give me a show/fandom and I'll answer -

Top 5 favourite characters:
Other characters you like:
Least favourite character:
Favourite friendship:
Favourite family:
Favourite episode:
Favourite season/book/movie:
Favourite quote:
Moment that made you fangirl/boy the hardest:
When it really disappointed you:
Saddest moment:
Most well done character death:
Favourite guest star:
Favourite cast member:
Character you wish was still alive:
One thing you hope really happens:
Most shocking twist:
When did you start watching/reading:
Trope you wish they would stop using:
One thing this show/book/film does better than others:
Funniest moments:
Couple you would like to see:
Actor/Actress you want to join the cast:
Most boring plotline:
Best flashback/flashfoward if any:
Most layered character:
Scariest moment:
Grossest moment:
Best looking male:
Best looking female:
Who you’re crushing on (if any):
Most beautiful scene (scenery/shot wise):
Unanswered question/continuity issue/plot error that bugs you:
At what point did you fall in love with this show/book:
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So, the opening sequence of the trailer of Age of Ultron had me in stitches. I could watch that for the entire movie. Did they steal the idea from tumblr??


Nov. 22nd, 2014 12:26 pm
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I'm writing again!!!
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First off - sorry about the silence. Been busy with work. Kids really take it out of you.

So, Bangkok. What a shithole. It smells of either amazing spicy food or open sewers from one step to the next.

Its a huge contradiction between opulence and money then depraved poverty.

I was in the big Siam Paragon mall yesterday - It has a whole floor just with luxury cars in like Maseratis, Astons etc. Holy moly!

What kills me is the price of wine here. I'm used to paying USD4 / GBP3 for a decent bottle of wine at home. Here they start at 700baht (USD20). It hurts my brain.

And yes, everyone is going on about the street food, but the last thing you want is an unidentifiable dish of food that has been soaking up pollution all day.

My kids are 6yrs old and can be utter assholes. But at the same time, they give me hugs and sticker bomb me everyday. It's pretty cool. I have 2 part time gigs - kindergarten sunday school and a korean girl who needs to be tutored.

Doesn't leave much time for a social life, which suits me, cos most of the people I've met here are wankers anyway.

Once I finish this contract in March, I'm gonna find somewhere else to go.


Oct. 15th, 2014 10:32 pm
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Its been forever since I was here, but in my tie, it feels like a few days.

Its been a blur of hot, humid days, random rain storms, class rooms and chaos!

I've been selected for a school in Bangkok central (not my first choice, but I can't be choosy when it comes to work.)

Next week this time I'd have graduated my course and packed my bags. I start proper teaching on the 27th - ESL 1st grade. OMG. I'm so nervous.

But hey, I'm alive and getting a slight tan - so life is good.


Sep. 19th, 2014 10:48 am
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Because [livejournal.com profile] yenny2206 asked...

Name: Tygermine
Birthday: 5 September
Zodiac: Virgo

Hair: Blonde (natural)
Eyes: Green
Height: erm...5,6"
Body Type: Queen Latifah

Relationship Status: Single
Religious Views: Each to their own
Political Views: Who are these clowwns running the world???

Favorite Color: Purple
Favorite Flower: Tulips and Poppies.

Favorite Movie(s): There is a top ten in each genre for different reasons.

Favorite Song(s): See above answer

3 Random Facts about you:
1.) I am South African (according to my passport)
2.) I hate sharing.
3.) The older I get, the less I like people in general

Story behind your username:
Inspired by a poem I read in high school - Tyger Tyger Burning Bright yada yada yada (I have an atrocious memory)

1. Nickname(s): my real name is pretty complicated, so no nicknames work, but it does rhyme with Jolene, and so my friends sing the opening to the song everytime I get called up for karaoke.

2. Age: 30 (sigh)

3. Location: Benoni, Gauteng, South Africa (untl 28th Sept, then it'll be HuaHin, Thailand)

4. Occupation: English Teacher (TESOL) (well, from end October anyway.)

5. Partner: None

6. Kid(s): 2 border collies

7. Brothers/Sisters: 2 sisters that I share blood with and 1 brother and 1 sister by marriage.

8. Pets: 2 border collies collectively known as "Trouble"

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:

1.) Moving to Thailand
2.) Stressed whilst being unemployed
3.) Leaving my mom alone to date unsupervised (this has not ended well in the past)
4.) In emotional and mental limbo

10.Parents: My mom is my best friend after reconnecting with her in my twenties (she missed my teen years by moving to Mozambique when I was 16). Earning my dad's respect by running away to London when I was 21. We are very different, yet so alike. Wish I could give them grandkids, but my wanderlust preails and they support it 110%.

11. Who are some of your closest friends?
I have a tightknit group of friends from high school that I can rely on. They know me so well and humour my flights of fancy.

12. What are some of the things you like most? I don't know anymore. I'm going to have to rediscover those things over the next few years.

13.A photo of yourself and anything else you want to say: No photo cos I'm going through a fat phase right now.
I'm down with a cold and have 9 days left until I start a whole new part of my life. I'm bouncing between the spectrum of emotions on a daily basis.
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So, on the eve of my 30th, I've been watching Matt Smith Dr Who as Clara irritates me and I've yet to warm up to Capaldi (sue me).

Anyway, I've realised something very important.

I am utterly terrified of being forced to settle and live a quiet, calm life in case I miss anything. And with this comes the collateral damage of a relationship and partner. And yet, when I see Amy and Rory travelling around with the Doctor, it gives me hope. It makes me realise that the right person will be someone who WANTS to travel with me.

I have yet to find that person, but the glimmer exists. And until I find that person, I'm going to fill my passport.
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I had such a great day yesterday and it wasn't even planned.

I was wallowing on my couch yesterday, watching series, when my friend J invited me to the movies - he had two free tickets. So I hustle to get ready and we head to the mall. Unfortunately, we had about 4 hours to kill until movie time, so i ended up buying two 2TB EXHD - way smaller than the cumbersome ones I own now and perfect for travelling.

So we're having a late lunch before the movie when my other friend sends me a message - He has an extra ticket to the stage show Handful of Keys. Now, I'm a huge theatre fan. I've been doing theatre most of my life and a chance to go see this show is pretty awesome.

J saw my face fall as I realised I was supposed to go to the movies with him. He laughed and said - If you don't go, I'm going to smack you. So I got the ticket and a ride to Monte Casino Theatre.

OMG - The show was brilliant and I got to meet the cast afterwards. The superbly talented and handsome Jonathan Roxmouth and Ian von Memerty. Unfortunately there is no footage on Youtube to link to, but the guys do tour the UK and States, so keep an eye out.

Today I am chilling, copying stuff onto drives and cleaning up. Tomorrow I turn 30. Never thought I'd see the day.

Hey, I might even write something.
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In less than a month I will be in Thailand.

But before that, I have my 30th Birthday party.

And it seems my younger sister is more excited about it than I am. She was sitting next to me earlier trying to pick out ideas from Pinterest. We got some good, dirt cheap ones. And for a change, we were actually getting along. That is until she brought up the idea of the cake/ cup cakes / cake pops etc.

I know how expensive cakes are, and I don't have a working oven to bake one so I tried to steer her away from the whole idea.

It failed and we ended up having a bit of a tiff. She accused me of being negative and grumpy and I told her that I don't have money for anything extravagant and NO, I AM NOT HAVING A CHANEL THEME! I told her to remember this is MY party and not some cliched, girly event that would evidently be hers.
She is now in her room.

I have absolutely no enthusiasm for next Saturday and yet it seems to be very important to EVERYONE ELSE. I mean, my dad calls me in a panic this morning - who will be supervising the spit braai? (meat on sticks rotating in front of gas burners). I shrugged and said, isn't it the point of a spit braai is that it doesn't need supervision, like a microwave? He lost the plot and began ranting about rotten meat and stuff. So now I'm looking for someone to man the meat.

In other news, my case worker resigned whilst I was in Barcelona and never informed me of my arbitration date. The replacement case worker treated me like it was my fault I didn't show up. I said a few things i'm not proud of, but at least it got the point across that they were at fault. So now I filled in 10000 forms to get a new date before I leave the country.

Someone - wake me up when September ends...
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So this week is turning out to be a bit stressful.

1) I have my hearing on Friday to sort out this work dismissal thing.
2) Its my best friends wedding on Saturday.
3) Complications are creeping into my Thai plans.

Mostly, though, its the wardrobe issue. I've been reading all these articles about dress codes for teachers in Thailand and, well, i'm pretty screwed.
Firstly they mention no tattoos. erm, well, there's one on my foot that I can't cover unless i wear doc martens and those are frowned upon. So I may have to invest in a serious amount of cover up for that spot.
Also, no cleavage must be shown. I'm sporting an E cup - cleavage is pretty much my entire chest.
All skirts must cover the knees and ladies can't wear trousers.

So i'll be stocking up on maxi skirts, oxford shirts and closed shoes. And may lose a few stone from sweating all day.

Despite all that, and deapite my last post of self indulgent angst, I'm pretty chipper lately. Good moods abound! Must be due to all the new music I've collected.
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Its the first day of my rag and all I want is a cuddle. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK???

Also, my damon fic has stalled and I'm on a Dramione fic, but thats for a non cuddle day.


Jul. 9th, 2014 09:24 am
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Hi flisters,

I have a huge favour to ask.

Can anyone be kind enough to scan me the GWay interview in todays Kerrang? Its not sold in SA and I would love to read it.

In other news, SA is in the grips of a deep freeze and i am suffering. Bring on Europe in August.
I'll be in Paris on the 18th if anyone would like to meet up.

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Hello Flist!

So, in a quick round up on whats happened:

I had a kangaroo court disciplinary hearing and was dismissed.
I went to a lawyer and he said I have an extremely strong case to win. I'm currently awaiting the concilliation date to see what pay out I will be getting.
I'm looking for temp work.
I'm moving to Thailand in September with my sister to teach English.

So, whilst I'm sitting at home, bored out of my mind and avoiding becoming a functioning alcoholic, I feel that I should get back into my authoring ways.

And this is where I need your help.

Do I owe you a fic? Do you want a fic from me? If so, please please please send me a prompt with any fandom and I shall whip something out for you.


Oh, enjoy your summer North Hemisphereians. I'm freezing my arse off.
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Its 2:45am.

I've just finished reading The Fault in Our Stars.

I can't stop crying.

Damn you, John Green, for making me relive my loss.

Also, I got fired. My lawyer says I have a strong case to sue. So I'm doing just that. One good thing about south african law - its for the worker, not the boss.

So, I need to work out a routine for myself with my free time. I feel a lot of reading, writing and gym attendance will be the way to go.


May. 29th, 2014 12:03 am
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Lets pray that whomever employs me never reada this blog.

I heard i can send my fics to Hustler and Playboy. Opinions???


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