Jan. 29th, 2009 10:18 am
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I miss my drug days.

I know this sounds really bad, but I do.

Just to be clear on this, I wasn't into hard drugs. I smoked the occasional joint and mainlined ephedrine and codeine.

The one I miss is ephedrine.

Its a class 6 drug here in SA and can only be purchased with a docs prescription. I'm not going to a doctor for that. I need to make some connections to see where I can find some.

See, the reason I miss it, was that it gave me energy.

I was able to stay up for days at a time, giving me time to do what I had to do - be it write, work, housework or just partying.

Now, I rely on instant coffee, but the kick is more of a light tap to my brain. By 3pm everyday, I'm exhausted. I don't like being tired. It makes my depressed and I don't do depressed well.

Last night I played action cricket with my company and then shot off to ballroom dancing lessons.
Today, my ass muscles are so sore, I don't want to move from my desk. Driving is painful (I drive stick shift) and the current torrents of rain turns everyone on the road into morons.

I'd rathe rbe home, sleeping on my couch while listening to K's Choice with my cat curled up on my stomach. *nods*
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Here's a little experiment.

what happens when you combine the following factors?

Work deadline
bank holiday
and wine

A lot of shit and you can't remember why.

I had been up since Friday.
No sleep.

I'm working on a really tight deadline and have yet to pull a miracle from my ass.

My mates invited over to a little house party type thing yesterday. I brought my computer along as I have sooooo much work to do.
When I got here, one was already drunk. The other drunk on lurve (love).
I set everything up, poured myself a vodka and rb and got to work, while talking shit and generally hanging out.

I fell asleep at my computer. At least that's where I think I fell asleep.

I woke up in a bed and had no idea why/how I got there, why my mate was pissed at the world in general and feel as though I should be apologising for something.

All I know for sure is that I had a really bad fuckng nightmare. One of those surround sound, technicolour, goes on forever and I just might die kind of nightmares. Every part of me hurts and I can't explain it.

Was it athe lack of sleep? Exhaustion? Stress? Alcohol?

I can't be sure.
I'm not sure of anything at the moment.

All I know is that I'm shaking.

And I'm not even cold.


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